Fun on a Budget

I have been down in the dumps lately. Maybe because of my poor luck in the world of romance... So, I have been spending a lot of time outside. I feel suffocated indoors, like the walls are closing in on me. Outside I can breathe and think much more clearly. I have had a lot of time to think, which only makes my dark mood darker. Though, I did come up with some awesomeness I need to share.

I am not a materialistic person, it doesn't take a lot to make me happy. But the world is an expensive place! It cost money to do almost everything. So, sitting at the park the other day I decided to list a few things that where free to do (not including gas of course) and here is what I came up with.

  • Go to the park! Hello, it is beautiful at most parks. You can walk the trail, sit at one of the picnic tables for lunch or just take pictures. 
  • Find a creek or river to play in. They are not all nasty and dirty. lol
  • Hang out at the library with friends. Just get one of the conference rooms  and play board games! (yep I might be doing this one soon!)
  • Hang out at a friends house and watch movies! Or at your own house with friends. I have done this at a friends house and it was so much fun!
  • Hang out at the mall, you don't have to buy anything!
So that is really all I got for right now. I did find out that there are a few things you can do pretty cheap too. I went and played putt putt with some friends last night and it was only 7 bucks for 18 holes. Not bad and it was a blast. There seems to be so much stuff to do that I have been blind too. I always thought you had to have a ton of money to go out and and have fun so I sat at home all day. Now, I enjoy going to the park and walking or sitting on one of the benches writing. I'm sure it would be even more fun with friends to goof off with.

The thing is, I am tired of sitting at home every weekend because I don't think I can afford to have fun. But, fun is not that expensive. I don't need to go to a movie or out to eat at a fancy restaurant. I just need a few bucks for the dollar menu at McDonald's or Burger King...or even Arby's! And then about 10 bucks to go play pool or putt putt. Or just find some where that stays open late that doesn't mind me and my friends hanging out.

Maybe it is more of the fact that I need my friends around more than used too. I am not as shy or introverted as I used to be. As long as I have friends around I am going to have a blast no matter what we are doing. Even if it is just sitting at someones house watching movies and joking around. Now, I just need a boyfriend that can have fun with out a ton of money. lol


One day we will learn how to have fun without breaking the bank!

Advice

I have come to realize that I love to give advice! I give it to people all the time in all kinds of situations. When someone is having issues with trying to figure out what they want in life I tell them "What do you want to do?", "What will make you happy?"

Recently it has been about dating. I am always throwing out advice to my friends. "You should tell him how you feel!" "Just let him know you are into him!" "Don't beat around the bush, just lay it out straight."

The thing about advice...I am really awesome at giving it! But I suck at taking it! Things would be so much simpler if I took my own advice about everything! Seriously, if I just sucked it up and told the guy I like that I was into him...maybe things would move forward. If I sat down and wrote out my list of what I want in life and actually make a plan I would be well on my way to happiness right now. But no, I can't take my own advice because I always make myself see my life as being different than the people I give advice too. But, its not is it? Maybe I really should "suck it up" or "grow a pair" and take my own advice.

Or maybe I can take the easy way out and see how things turn out for my friends with my advice...but by time I see the outcome for that it could be too late for me to take a step forward right?

Okay, so maybe that is my real problem. Maybe I am stuck, standing still, not moving! Because I am just too afraid of putting myself out there. I am afraid of coming home broken and bruised and beat down. Though, isn't that what life is really about? Who comes out on top with the most bruises wins...right? Maybe I need a few new bruises and broken bones. Who knows, maybe I won't even have to get my heart shattered again!

Now that I really think about it, I think I stopped fighting a long time ago because I was so tired of fighting. It gets tiring after a while doesn't it? Of course that is where the saying "You can rest when you die" comes from. Oh my WOW! That saying just got a whole new meaning for me! I guess it is time I got off my butt (mentally and physically) and started fighting again. All wounds heal in the end.

To anyone who reads my blogs, stop resting, it is not time to rest. Now is the time to fight because now you are alive...so live!

What do you think?

I have had this saying in my head for the past few days; "It is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." But is it true? If you really think about it, it is both true and false.

First, let us define what this is really saying. We are not talking about the love of a family member or even a best friend. We are talking about a deeper love that is shared between two people, you know, the kind that makes the world brighter...Yeah, that kind of love. And while this statement is saying that it is better to have loved, that love is something that should be returned. That is what we are looking at. A love that is felt and returned. At least to me that is what the statement is referring too.

Now, look at it from a single girls perspective (yes that means me!)

I have been single my whole life. I have fallen for guy after guy only to get my heart ripped out and my soul burned to ashes. Dramatic, right? So, I have never made it to the whole love part...though I am pretty sure I felt like it. But, the love was never returned. In my case, I have never loved and let me tell you, it sucks major monkey balls. I question everyday, what is wrong with me? What have I done wrong? Am I sending the wrong message? Yeah, it sucks! On the other hand, I have never been so intimate with someone that I lose myself in complete bliss, so I don't really know what I am missing out on!

Now, on to the person that has been in a serious relationship...(Maybe I will get there one day)

The person that has been in a really intense relationship. They love the person they are with and they know the person loves them. Every second of every day is spent thinking about the one they love. Then, something happens and the world crumbles and the relationship ends. Both people walk away broken. They spend days thinking about the relationship and wondering what happened. Both wonder what they did wrong or how they could have changed things. And now, they have felt that love and have been loved themselves. Once it is over there is always that void within your soul that always reminds you of what you have had. Though, you have had love, you know how great it can be!

Both ends of the spectrum have a positive point. And both have their downside. While I would love to focus more on the positive side of my singleness I can't help but to wish to be on the other side. Some nights it is all I pray about before I go to bed. Sounds pathetic right? It's okay, I seem to be a pretty pathetic and corny person most of the time.

What do you think? Is it better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all? Or do you think this quote is just full of it?