Fun on a Budget

I have been down in the dumps lately. Maybe because of my poor luck in the world of romance... So, I have been spending a lot of time outside. I feel suffocated indoors, like the walls are closing in on me. Outside I can breathe and think much more clearly. I have had a lot of time to think, which only makes my dark mood darker. Though, I did come up with some awesomeness I need to share.

I am not a materialistic person, it doesn't take a lot to make me happy. But the world is an expensive place! It cost money to do almost everything. So, sitting at the park the other day I decided to list a few things that where free to do (not including gas of course) and here is what I came up with.

  • Go to the park! Hello, it is beautiful at most parks. You can walk the trail, sit at one of the picnic tables for lunch or just take pictures. 
  • Find a creek or river to play in. They are not all nasty and dirty. lol
  • Hang out at the library with friends. Just get one of the conference rooms  and play board games! (yep I might be doing this one soon!)
  • Hang out at a friends house and watch movies! Or at your own house with friends. I have done this at a friends house and it was so much fun!
  • Hang out at the mall, you don't have to buy anything!
So that is really all I got for right now. I did find out that there are a few things you can do pretty cheap too. I went and played putt putt with some friends last night and it was only 7 bucks for 18 holes. Not bad and it was a blast. There seems to be so much stuff to do that I have been blind too. I always thought you had to have a ton of money to go out and and have fun so I sat at home all day. Now, I enjoy going to the park and walking or sitting on one of the benches writing. I'm sure it would be even more fun with friends to goof off with.

The thing is, I am tired of sitting at home every weekend because I don't think I can afford to have fun. But, fun is not that expensive. I don't need to go to a movie or out to eat at a fancy restaurant. I just need a few bucks for the dollar menu at McDonald's or Burger King...or even Arby's! And then about 10 bucks to go play pool or putt putt. Or just find some where that stays open late that doesn't mind me and my friends hanging out.

Maybe it is more of the fact that I need my friends around more than used too. I am not as shy or introverted as I used to be. As long as I have friends around I am going to have a blast no matter what we are doing. Even if it is just sitting at someones house watching movies and joking around. Now, I just need a boyfriend that can have fun with out a ton of money. lol


One day we will learn how to have fun without breaking the bank!

Advice

I have come to realize that I love to give advice! I give it to people all the time in all kinds of situations. When someone is having issues with trying to figure out what they want in life I tell them "What do you want to do?", "What will make you happy?"

Recently it has been about dating. I am always throwing out advice to my friends. "You should tell him how you feel!" "Just let him know you are into him!" "Don't beat around the bush, just lay it out straight."

The thing about advice...I am really awesome at giving it! But I suck at taking it! Things would be so much simpler if I took my own advice about everything! Seriously, if I just sucked it up and told the guy I like that I was into him...maybe things would move forward. If I sat down and wrote out my list of what I want in life and actually make a plan I would be well on my way to happiness right now. But no, I can't take my own advice because I always make myself see my life as being different than the people I give advice too. But, its not is it? Maybe I really should "suck it up" or "grow a pair" and take my own advice.

Or maybe I can take the easy way out and see how things turn out for my friends with my advice...but by time I see the outcome for that it could be too late for me to take a step forward right?

Okay, so maybe that is my real problem. Maybe I am stuck, standing still, not moving! Because I am just too afraid of putting myself out there. I am afraid of coming home broken and bruised and beat down. Though, isn't that what life is really about? Who comes out on top with the most bruises wins...right? Maybe I need a few new bruises and broken bones. Who knows, maybe I won't even have to get my heart shattered again!

Now that I really think about it, I think I stopped fighting a long time ago because I was so tired of fighting. It gets tiring after a while doesn't it? Of course that is where the saying "You can rest when you die" comes from. Oh my WOW! That saying just got a whole new meaning for me! I guess it is time I got off my butt (mentally and physically) and started fighting again. All wounds heal in the end.

To anyone who reads my blogs, stop resting, it is not time to rest. Now is the time to fight because now you are alive...so live!

What do you think?

I have had this saying in my head for the past few days; "It is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." But is it true? If you really think about it, it is both true and false.

First, let us define what this is really saying. We are not talking about the love of a family member or even a best friend. We are talking about a deeper love that is shared between two people, you know, the kind that makes the world brighter...Yeah, that kind of love. And while this statement is saying that it is better to have loved, that love is something that should be returned. That is what we are looking at. A love that is felt and returned. At least to me that is what the statement is referring too.

Now, look at it from a single girls perspective (yes that means me!)

I have been single my whole life. I have fallen for guy after guy only to get my heart ripped out and my soul burned to ashes. Dramatic, right? So, I have never made it to the whole love part...though I am pretty sure I felt like it. But, the love was never returned. In my case, I have never loved and let me tell you, it sucks major monkey balls. I question everyday, what is wrong with me? What have I done wrong? Am I sending the wrong message? Yeah, it sucks! On the other hand, I have never been so intimate with someone that I lose myself in complete bliss, so I don't really know what I am missing out on!

Now, on to the person that has been in a serious relationship...(Maybe I will get there one day)

The person that has been in a really intense relationship. They love the person they are with and they know the person loves them. Every second of every day is spent thinking about the one they love. Then, something happens and the world crumbles and the relationship ends. Both people walk away broken. They spend days thinking about the relationship and wondering what happened. Both wonder what they did wrong or how they could have changed things. And now, they have felt that love and have been loved themselves. Once it is over there is always that void within your soul that always reminds you of what you have had. Though, you have had love, you know how great it can be!

Both ends of the spectrum have a positive point. And both have their downside. While I would love to focus more on the positive side of my singleness I can't help but to wish to be on the other side. Some nights it is all I pray about before I go to bed. Sounds pathetic right? It's okay, I seem to be a pretty pathetic and corny person most of the time.

What do you think? Is it better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all? Or do you think this quote is just full of it?

Wacky Wednesday: Dreams are Awesome!

Lately I have been having some super crazy yet awesome dreams!

The other night I had a dream that my family was a mafia and we were fighting another mafia family. We were standing outside this super huge mansion waiting for the war to start. My brother and I had the job of getting into the house and stealing something (I don't know what). We got into the house and I lost my brother in the mess. I get to one room and one of the members of the other family had me trapped. Then all of a sudden this giant was peaking in the window. Of course the guy was an idiot and went out to the balcony and the giant ate him. I then discovered that the giant was someone in my mafia family that transformed into this monster giant that ate people when he was super mad.

Awesome dream right?

Last night I had another dream. This one came with a whole story line that developed part while I was in the dream and the rest when I woke up. So, I thought I would share this dream in a short story and see what you think and you can help me decide if I should continue with it. (So sorry this is so long! I didn't notice until I had finished.)


      
             Elijah and Chasity crawled out of Sonia's car. Sonia was the girlfriend of Elijah's brother, Adam. Chasity looked back at the car and smiled at Sonia.
            "Thank's for the ride. Hopefully the auto shop can have my car ready before classes tomorrow. Adam, thanks for coming to our call for help." Chasity said with a laugh.
            "Anything for you Chasity." Adam said with a smile. "As much as my brother talks about you I think he would kill me if I didn't help." Adam gave an evil grin to Elijah as he watched Elijah's face turn bright red.
            "Adam, you are so dead." Elijah said half serious. He took Chasity's hand and began to turn towards the college building behind them.
            "Yeah, we were not doing anything anyways." Sonia said causing Chasity to stand her ground as Elijah tried to pull her away. "You should be getting back to your dorm, it's getting dark and all kinds of nasty things happen in the dark." Sonia said in a cold tone. She rolled the driver's side window up and drove off.
            "What was that about?" Elijah asked Chasity.
            "I have no clue. Come on, it's getting chilly." Chasity said as she pulled Elijah towards the building. When they entered and started up the stairs to Chaisty's dorm Elijah got a call.
            "Go on, I will meet you in your dorm in a moment." Elijah said with a smile. Chasity had to pick up in her dorm room before he came up so she rushed to her room, grateful for the few moments of distraction.
            It wasn't long before Chasity had her room picked up and had popcorn in the microwave. Elijah had not come to her room yet so she went looking for him. She laughed at the thought of him forgetting what room was hers. He was scatter  brained sometimes. She found him at the bottom of the steps talking quietly into the phone.
            "I don't understand what is going on? None of this makes sense." Elijah said into the phone. "No! This is not acceptable. She can't be the one."
            Chasity knew what he was talking about, but she needed him to tell her. She needed to be able to trust him. Chasity jumped when Elijah hung up his phone and cursed loudly as he threw the phone into the floor.
            "Elijah?" Chasity said as she looked down the steps at him.
            "Chasity, I am so sorry. Had I known..."
            "Known what?" Chasity asked as she walked to stand by him.
            "They are coming for you." Elijah said quietly.
            "Who Elijah? Who is coming for me?"
            "Sonia and her warriors. They say that you are a threat to the world. They say that you have to be taken out before you remind me of something. They have been waiting for you to show up. I didn't know it was you, I never thought it could be you."
            "But it is." Chasity said with a smile. "Come to  my room. I will tell you a few things." Chasity took Elijah by the hand and lead him to her room. Once they were in she pulled the popcorn out of the microwave and placed it in a bowl. "Have a seat." She said as she sat the popcorn on the table and went to the small refrigerator and pulled out two beers. "You are going to need one of these." She said with a smile as she sat on the couch and handed one to him. He was still standing staring at her.
            "What is going on?" Elijah asked as he sat down beside her popping open the beer and chugging half the can. Chasity smiled at him.
            "You and I are meant to be together. It has been written in the stars. Together we can change the world. People like Sonia do not like the changes we would cause. Wars would stop, cruelty would come to an end. The world would be overcome by peace."
            "Because of you and me? That makes no sense." Elijah said as he stared at Chasity in bewilderment.
            "We have lived many lives. In the beginning we were Angels made for one another. We are soul mates. Every living being has a soul mate, every Angel, and every spirit, has a soul mate. You are mine and I am yours. It is our fate and our destiny."
            "Okay." Elijah said as he laid his head back and closed his eyes. "I should be freaked but we can keep playing this game for a bit."
            "It's not a game. Have you ever heard of the story of Adam and Eve?" Chasity asked with patience.
            "Yeah, my mother made me go to church when I was younger."
            "Well, I was once Eve, you were Adam and Sonia was the evil creature that pushed me to take the forbidden fruit. The story is not completely true, the one that people hear in church. As Adam, you were sick. Our creator did not know what had happened to you, it was something he had not created and could not contain it. It was a disease given to you by Sonia.
            "She told me that the fruit our creator had warned us about would heal you. Even though it was going against our creator I had to do it. I did not actually eat the fruit, I gave it all to you. When you woke from your cold sweat I kissed your lips and that was when the creator found us. He saw that you were well and was elated, but he smelled the fruit in your veins and smelled it on my lips. He knew I had taken the fruit, Sonia told him so. Our punishment was to have to find each other in another lifetime. I was to remember everything. Our creator had felt that you had suffered enough with the unknown illness and let you forget..." Chasity met Elijah's eyes as a tear streamed down her face. "...everytime, you forgot."
            "I don't want to believe you, but something about it feels right. I have to believe you." Elijah said confused. He stood to pace the room. "So why is Sonia still after you?"
            "My punishment was to remember you and every life time we had together. Our creator did not mean for this punishment to go on forever. I was to find you in the next lifetime and we would return back to Heaven and retake our name as Angels. We were to renew the peace that had been our world before Sonia tempted me. She does not want peace because when there is peace there is no Hell and that is her domain."
            "So she is like..." Elijah walked to the window that looked out into the courtyard. He saw Sonia standing by the fountain that stood in the center of the decorated garden. "...the devil?" He caught Sonia's eyes from the distance. She smiled a smile that sent shivers down Elijah's spine.
            "Yes, that is basically what it boils down to. Our creator made her as he made us, though he made her with as much power as he has. Only, she uses her power for evil and in ways that makes her stronger than our Creator. He cannot stop her reign of terror on us. It is up to us to find a way to defeat her."
            "Oh yeah, that will work! We are just humans, we have no power, I have no knowledge and if our creator cannot stop her how the hell are we supposed to stop her?" Elijah asked as he walked away from the window. "She is standing out in the court yard right now. She is staring straight into your window. She knows where we are and I am sure she knows that I know everything now."
            "Elijah, chill out. We do have protection. We have creatures on our side that can help us. We have demons that want her reign to stop. While one demon cannot defeat her, an army can if  lead properly."
            "Demons? Like, from hell?" Elijah asked as his head spun in disbelief and anger. "Why not Angels?"
            "Angels are good. They will cause no evil. They will not fight. Demons will." Chasity said as she stood from her seat and looked out the window. Sonia was gone. Elijah joined her at the window. "You will start remembering everything soon. Then things will not be so hard for you to wrap your mind around.
            "What are you tal..." Elijah hit the floor in pain. Memories flooded his thoughts. Things he didn't know he knew. Things from another life, his life, lives. Soon his vision was gone and he stared into the blackness of unconsciousness.

It looks stupid!

Here we go, it's a rant! Summer is coming, the weather is getting warmer and people are pulling out the sandals.

Personally I love sandals. If I could get away with it I would wear them all year round (well, if I didn't love my boots so much.). I am smart though. When I wear sandals, I wear sandals!

I know you are asking "what in the world are you talking about?"
Oh yeah, that is what I am talking about. Tacky, ugly, and stupid.

You wear sandals so your feet can breathe!

You wear socks to keep your feet warm!

If it is to cold to wear sandals, don't wear sandals...duh!

Yes, I warned you this was a rant.

I can't stand it to be honest. I hate seeing people walking around on a cold day wearing socks with their sandals. The whole point of sandals was to keep your feet cool when it was to hot to wear tennis shoes or boots. I just don't understand the point of wearing socks with sandals. Is it laziness? Are people just to lazy to bend down and put shoes on or something?

That would be what is wrong with our society today. Though, you could sit down, which you probably did to put on socks, and put on your shoes.

Now, I understand if you are at home and realize that you left something in your car. It's cold outside, you have your socks on but you just don't feel like putting your shoes back on just to run out to the car. Sure, throw those sandals on and run outside, you are just coming back in the house.

Even worse is when you wear flip flops with socks. You could at least buy toe socks (which are adorable...just not with flip flops) or those weird Japanese socks that separate the toes...
Still tacky to me, but the Japanese do it all the time.

Another issue that irritates me, bedroom shoes. Yeah, I wear bedroom shoes in the winter, my feet usually stay cold, but, I wear them in my house! Not to go shopping in or out to eat.

The other day I was with a good friend of mine and we were waiting for her mother-in-law to get out of the tanning bed. We were sitting in her car with her two kids just chatting when this woman comes out of the restaurant.

First off, the woman looked like she had just rolled out of bed and put on yesterday's dirty clothes (which were probably dirty from the day before as well). Second, she had just come out of a restaurant, a very public place where most people at least look decent to go sit down and eat. No! Not this woman she had on some ratty bedroom shoes. So, maybe she did just roll out of bed...It's disturbing really.

Maybe the world just got lazy and I missed the memo?

P.S. Please put on some shoes if you are going to wear sandals...or take off the socks! And leave the bedroom shoes...in the bedroom!

The Game of LIFE

Last weekend I went to my best friends house to play games. We are that dorky I guess. Last weekend we played Life. You know the game, you put a little peg person in a plastic car, spin the wheel and wait for the unexpected things that life has to throw at you.

While I love this game there are just a few things wrong with it.

First of all, you can decide to go to college or go straight into a career when you start the game. Great! There are jobs that you can get only if you have a diploma and they have a higher pay grade. I can deal with that. What I don't like though is how much you pay to go to college. $60,000. Not that much really and it is reasonable and very real. What isn't real is how fast you can pay it off! Maybe I just got lucky with my career that I picked from a stack with a high pay...Who knows.

Though, in real life, so far I only owe about 30 thousand dollars for student loans...so maybe this makes sense. I just don't like how quickly I was able to pay it off.

Now, second. It makes you get married! Not everyone in life is going to get married. Dating usually comes first doesn't it? What happened to dating before you get married? You land on the "Get Married" spot and you marry some random blue guy (or pink chick for the guys). Yeah, that is how I want to do it in real life. Just show up at the chapel and marry the first guy I pick out of a bag. Though, at the rate I am going that would probably lead me to a better outcome.

Now, by time I landed on the "get married" tile I had already paid off my student loans. Yay! Me and the husband went out every night because I at least had a good job! He didn't work! He just sat on the couch all day watching TV and getting fat. Then all of a sudden we had to buy a house. Thank goodness I had a job to pay for the house but it took all my savings.

If you have played life you know that you have to draw two random cards from the house pile. One house that I got was really cheap and split in half! Now, with the husband being such a lazy bum I knew he wouldn't repair the house even if I asked him to. So, we had to go with the expensive house that had 8 bedrooms. Me and the blue man hubby had discussed having a bunch of kids one day...

Then back to work I go to save money for what ever happens next in life.

Then there are the kids. I got lucky in this round and only had one kid. Probably because my husband was fat and ugly by this point and I couldn't stand to lay in the same bed as him. Luckily with the large house that I bought I set up my own room and my only child (a boy) was used to me and the husband sleeping in different rooms.

Of course with us only having one child I had to spoil the child. He had to go to a private school...there was more of my money. Then he had to go to summer school. I guess he will turn out like his father. Lazy bum.

By the end of the game I had over a million dollars saved, so of course I won. Yay retirement.

Why can't life be as simple as the game...though, I had a bit of a rough time with the husband not working and the son turning out just the same. He is waiting for his mother to die so he can take all her money.

By the way, I divorced the husband at the end. I tried to wait for him to die but he just wouldn't die. I made a good case though and got off free. He didn't get a dime...just the old house that was split in half that I bought for him later.

The game of LIFE, always a reminder of how much life sucks (sometimes.)

Wacky Wednesday: Crushaholic!

I have a confession to make. I am a crushoholic!

I know you are asking what that means so I will tell you, because I am just that nice.

Crushaholic: Someone that seems to always have a crush on someone. Most of the time it is someone they don't know very well, but finds them very attractive in some way, shape, or form. When said crush denies the Crushaholic the Crushaholic will quickly move on and find a new crush with in the same day that the rejection takes place. Extreme Crushaholics will have more than one crush at a time so they are never found without a crush on someone.

I, my friends, am an extreme crushaholic. Sometimes I feel like a teenager just discovering boys! Yeah, it is that bad sometimes. When I am walking down the street I find myself eying every single guy that walks by. There is not even a type that I look for. If it is a guy, I am going to look. Wow...I am like a whore only with out all the physical contact...or the guys knowledge that I am checking him out.

Gee, I think I might even be worse than a guy!

Okay, there are a few things that draw my attention more. Like, long hair. I have a super weakness for guys with long hair. And smiles! If the guy has a nice smile I would melt in his hands! And of course the eyes...some guys have this little sparkle in their eyes!

Esh, I am horrible. You can't even call me shallow because I look at just about every guy. The first thing I do is try to figure out how old he is. If he seems at least 21 or older I will take a closer look. Then I determine if he is younger than...at least 35. Okay, that is a lie, younger than 30. Maybe that makes me shallow...or smart. Ha!

After that I watch how he stands, talks, and walks. A guy has to have confidence. Then I look at the eyes and wait for a smile. By now I have already noticed if the guy has long hair or not, of course.

*sigh* I should stop talking now. Maybe I just like to collect guys in my head...to bad it can't be my basement.

I must go now. The fairies are laughing so loud I am getting a headache. They find it funny that I have shared such embarrassing things to the world. What can I say...I wear my life on my sleeve. Yeah, not my heart, it is safely locked away.

Even though it's true, Is that Wacky enough for you?

Happy Wacky Wednesday folks!
P.S. Are you a Crushaholic?