Dear Santa

Dear Santa,
   I have been a really good girl this year and I think I deserve a really awesome gift. But, there is a problem. See, I seem to have lost my Christmas spirit. It has gotten so bad I fail to understand the point of decorating. I always love decorating the tree and bugging my dad to put up the big Santa in the yard. By this time most years I am singing Christmas music and watching all these awesome Christmas movies. This year the movies are making it worse. I feel so heart broken that I can't seem to find that giddy happy holiday joy.
   So Santa if you don't mind could you maybe make an early stop at my house and help me find my Christmas spirit? Then maybe you could possibly drop off a cute boyfriend for me too? Just kidding, sort of. I am searching really hard for my Christmas spirit this year but she seems to be hiding in a new spot this year. Christmas music isn't doing it for me, or movies, or even decorating...everything isn't going to help this year.
   What is going to help? How can I find it? You are Santa, you should know how to find my spirit right? Work your magic and help me, please. I am so desperate to find that joy that always comes with the holidays.
   And then after I find that I would like for you to help me find a little inspiration to help me lose the weight that I need and become healthy. See Santa, I don't want material things for Christmas this year. I think I just need some help in repairing my soul. I have lost a lot of it over the years. My holiday spirit, my inspiration and drive, and possibly even the part that allows me to let new people in. I seem to have shut down and I have gotten really good at pushing people away. And I am good at not letting people know much about me or who I really am. Although, I sometimes wonder if I even know who I am.
   Santa, I know that you have a busy time this year, you know, delivering all those miracles and all. So if you can't help me out this year I will totally understand. I am sure there are people that deserve a miracle more than me. Just keep me on your list, even if it's at the bottom. Maybe one year you can make it to me. I will still believe in you.

With Love
*Heather*

1 comment:

  1. Nice blog Heather! No surprise that it's Purple :-P This post really touched me, so I'm going to share something with you. It's hard to force a fake warm fuzzy "feeling" at Christmas if you're not really into it. You need to go back to the true meaning of Christmas and where it came from. What is it all about anyway? There is so much more to it than decorations, presents, songs, and movies. It's about a wonderful gift to every person on earth, and thinking of others more than ourselves. It's a time when we remind ourselves that we are only as good as the help we give to others in need.

    Go here: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Mathew%201:18-2:23&version=ESV

    And here: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%201:26-1:38&version=ESV

    And Here: http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke%202&version=ESV

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