Getting Lost

It has been a while since I posted a blog. I wouldn't let myself post a new blog until I did my homework so...I watched T.V. instead...bad student! I missed out on a lot of things because of homework that I just could not bring myself to do. I have just a few more assignments to get done but they don't have to be turned in until Tuesday...so I will wait until Monday night to do it.

On to the blog!

I get lost all the time. Every time I turn around I am getting lost. Lost in thought, lost going down some random road that I decide to take, because the other road is just to busy to bother. I even some times get lost in my room or even at work...not many places to go in either place, I just don't pay attention to what I am doing sometimes. But the biggest reason I get lost is because my mind just races around new worlds that only I know of. I am a writer, not published but a writer none the less. So I am really good at losing myself in worlds that I have read about, seen in movies, and worlds that I have created myself.

What brought all this up? Harry Potter. Oh yes, I went and saw Harry Potter Sunday afternoon. I will say that I was sadly disappointed in the movie, but I really hope that the second part of the final will make up for that, at least in the book that is when all the action took place. Although I was disappointed in the movie I was still sucked into the world of Harry Potter. There is so much magic an so many dark corners that these kids get to lurk around. Sure most of the dark corners only hold danger, but it is better than boring reality...right?

While I was watching the movie I suddenly remembered that I was actually sitting in a theater. I was never there with Harry, Hermione, and Ron. I was never fighting off Death Eaters and hiding from snatchers. No, I was sitting in a lousy theater in the middle of reality. But for a moment, a very long moment, I was in that movie. I was right beside Harry Potter just begging for Voldemort to pop up so I could zap him with my awesome expecto patronum. (The saddest part of that last sentence is I honestly knew how to spell all of it...) For one brief moment I was far away from the boring world that I call reality and I was just as awesome as Harry Potter. I got lost in a world that was never my own and no matter how much I wish it, it will probably never be my world.

It's not just Harry Potter that draws me in and allows me to lose myself into these characters. And it's not just movies either. I can seriously lose myself in a book a lot quicker than a movie. The screen in my head is much bigger, louder and clearer than the ones in the theater. Every character looks like how I would imagine them and they never stray from their true personality because they are the real characters living in my head, not some actor playing the part. When I read Eclipse and Edward left Bella, I collapsed with Bella. I became depressed, so depressed that I actually flipped to the back of the book just to make sure Edward came back! I know that sounds crazy but I was so heart broken that I just could not function. I had become Bella, lost in who she was, lost in her pain and heart break. Oh, and when Jacob came into the story I felt her relief when she was with him, but there was always that edge of longing for Edward that I knew would never go away. I was Bella!

Another book that I read was by the author Kim Harrison and her Hallows series. So far there are eight books in this series and every book I recaptured the main character, Rachel Morgan. I became Rachel, battling demons and vampires. Falling in love with a vampire and living with a vampire that wanted to feed on me. Oh yeah, I felt the emotions like I was actually Rachel Morgan. When her heart was broken, mine broke. Once I even had a bruised ankle at the same time she did. I always read before I go to bed and right before I closed the book and turned out my light Rachel was hurt and had a bruise on her ankle. When I woke up the next morning I had a bruise in the exact same location. Sure, I could have done it some time before without actually knowing, but it was still awesome.

As a writer when I am writing a story I have to tap into my characters. I have to become them, feel their pain, happiness, fear and heart break. I have to be that character and everything that is me must disappear so that I can really write about this character. And some times these characters wake up with out me wanting them to. Many a times I have been angry for no reason or even ecstatic for no reason. And when I get extremely angry I know that every single character is screaming at me, wanting me to write because they are tired of just living in my mind. They want to be shared with the world.

Now, you can think I am crazy and I am cool with that. But, you will see. Once I get that first book published and you read how awesome it is, you will realize what an amazing gift it is to become the characters that you THOUGHT you created. You never create a story, you just write what the characters tell you to write, you write down the story they are telling you. The characters choose you.

And I know that everyone has a moment where they get lost in a book or movie. I know that everyone has the ability to become a character that they are either watching, reading, or creating(listening to). I like to think that I can tap into a character better than other people. Call me arrogant. But I seriously like to think that this is what I am good at. Everyone has that one thing that they are better at then other people. I think this is my spark, this is what I was made to do. To write, to read, to watch, and to become the characters that are being thrown at me. I can understand them better that way. Just try it, try to be a character that you are reading about. Lose yourself completely and let the character take over and see what you really learn about that character.

By all means though, if you are reading about a serial killer, please do not act on that characters wishes! :)

Until we meet again
*Heather*