I am Awesome. And so are you!

   I goal is to blog every day about something, anything that I find interesting or dare to rant about. Today, I was going to blog about recycling and excessive packaging or how much I love curling my hair. So that last one was a bit shallow, but we all have are flaws right?

While I was waiting for my brother to get out of class I started reading a blog by a blogger that I have become obsessed with (since yesterday!) Some of you may have heard of him, Single Dad Laughing. This guy writes some of the most amazing blogs! They are funny yet serious all at the same time. They are just right out interesting. So as I was reading his new blog I clicked a link and found a post by him that really caught my eye, it has got to be one of the longest blogs that I actually read the whole way through! His post is labeled "Worthless women and the men who make them".

This blog is about how women are always putting themselves down and how it is the fault of men. SDL claims that it is the fault of men because men are the ones that expect a woman to have a perfect body and because they stare at magazines with beautiful fake women on them. (Read the blog, its awesome and I am sure I dumbed  it down...sorry about that)

After reading this blog I was all for blaming men for my insecurities. But I just can not let that be. I see where SDL is coming from and I can totally see his point of view but I can't help but to think how women cause this on each other as much as a man can cause it. Seriously, think about it. Women, when you are in the store and you see another woman walk by who's hair is a little messy, do you not think, "I can't believe she left the house like that." Are we not to blame as well for these insecurities. We cause each other grief in our daily lives. Because that one chick told me I was fat I want to lose weight. Sure if a guy was to tell me I was fat it would make me want to loss weight too. And when I see a woman with beautiful flowing, shiny hair, I want to go home and wash my hair...even if I just washed it that morning.

So all in all, are we not to blame for our insecurities as well? Even if men stopped tripping over a woman with perfect breast and tight abs, I would still compare myself to that woman. I would still see flaws in myself and want to fix that. Which is also covered in SDL's blog. He states that woman should accept themselves, but just stopping men from drooling over fake woman is not going to change my mind set.

And this is where I really start to think. This is where I really start to question my thoughts. Who's fault is it really that I do not like the way I look? It is my own, and no one else. Can I really justify my depressing moments on some guy that wouldn't look at me because he was too busy looking at the woman with the perky boobs? No, I can't. It is all on me. How I feel about me, comes from no one but myself. After all, I am a Leo and a Leo is not easily persuaded from their opinions.

So today I decided to lift up my chin, walk tall and strong, and smile no matter what! Why? Because I am awesome. I am truly happy with my body...that is if I wasn't joining the Air Force. Even though my teeth are not perfect, when I smile I look like I have fangs and that is flippin fantastic. My eyes are blue but one eye has a very large brown spot that seems to keep growing every year and that makes me unique. I have a childish sounding voice but that is what helps me sound innocent, even in the rare moments when I am not. And I don't look like I am 25, but that is what assures me that when I am 75 I will look 55. And I may have a funny laugh that makes people laugh more, in turn causing me to laugh even harder, but I like to laugh and you can't stop me.

I have decided to turn a new leaf (is that the saying?) and I will be happy with who I am. I may restrict my diet and exercise but that is not my attempt to become super skinny like the photoshoped models on magazines, that is so once college is done and over I can join the military. And I may go to bed early and get up early even though my very soul screams for me to stay up late and sleep all day, but once again, that is to prepare myself for my life to come.

And before I end this blog I would like to list 10 things that I love about myself.
1. My Imagination. It runs wild sometimes but it keeps me...sane?
2. My awesome sense of style!
3. My love for vampires and anything supernatural or mysterious.
4. My love for my family and friends because they make living worthwhile.
5. My ability to laugh through almost anything. Even when I know I should cry.
6. My moments of OCD. Like how I can't turn off the car until it is parked straight and how I can't park on     the right side.
7. My love for animals, even though it gets a little obsessive sometimes.
8. How scatter brained I can be...most of the time
9. My love and hope for humanity. One day we are going to surprise us all.
10. My optimism in the darkest of situations.

Your turn, name 10 things you love about yourself. I know you can come up with 10. DO IT!

Until we meet again
Heather